FAIL!

So, my ovaries failed me... as suspected! I said in my last post that I didn't feel like I'd ovulated, and I hadn't! My progesterone level came back as 0.6. That's as clear as the "You didn't ovulate!" message gets! I marked all my fever temps as such, and my crosshairs are gone. I guess its for the best since I deserve them.

This is just how I felt after my December "cycle"... But, I hoped that it was just coincidence. Now, I'm seeing a pattern. I obviously don't ovulate right after a loss. Weird that some women get to be more fertile, but I just fail miserably instead. Rubbish!

On the bright side, I still had refills of my Provera. So, I called one in and can pick it up anytime after noon today. That's a plus. I'm just going to cut and run. I refuse to wait around this time like I did after December. I gave in on CD58 back then. I don't intend to wait another 2 months! I'm not getting any younger. It just blows that I'll have to wait about 10 days to bleed, and then another 16 to ovulate. So, almost a month!

I just want another chance at my progesterone test before I get passed along to a fertility specialist. I don't need all of that if its just progesterone!

Of course, this worries me that I'm somehow never going to ovulate again or something... or that I never actually do! But, I know how stupid that is! I could feel a HUGE difference between this month and the months when I do ovulate! So, I'm trying to put it out of my mind.

I guess that's all for tonight... err... today! Its almost 6am. I guess I should sleep! :(

G'night! ♥